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09 April 2010 @ 12:57 pm
i just noticed my last post was in december.

well, lets see....
life is good!
almost great.

i am in such a great place with all the stuff that has to do with eric. i look back at our relationship and the way we were, the way i was, and i am almost relieved it's over. if that makes sense?
i hope he is happy. he is a great guy and was a great boyfriend. so i hope he finds someone who appreciates him.

so far i like this quarter, even though i am already behind. ya...its been 2 weeks haha

going to vegas next weekend for sahars 25th bday. i think i am more excited than she is!
18 November 2009 @ 11:31 am
that's right je pourrais aller à Paris!!

it is more attainable than i thought (not counting the thousands of dollars i need)

but still, nothing a loan can't take care of.

how could i pass up this opportunity?? 5 weeks in paris in the summer??

i will find out if i have been accepted in about a month.

cross those fingers.
09 November 2009 @ 10:59 pm
haven't posted in forever.

well school is.....alright.
i am taking literature classes, they are required. and although i am glad i am in children's lit, i still feel weird because it's not like the information i am learning will have anything to to with anything...ever.
and i dont really care about it.

i cant wait to actually do math and econ and analytical problem solving!
so thats school.

i miss eric. sometimes. most of the time i dont. and i LOVE the single life (95% of the time)
i hang out with eric sometimes. i am waiting for him to hurt me i guess. i dont know why i am doing that, it is comfortable i guess (not the hurting part).

living with sahar is pretty good. there are small things here and there that i get annoyed with or that she gets annoyed with. she used to live at home and i pretty much lived by myself (living with eric i could do what i wanted so it was like my place)so i think it is normal.

i am broke. again. in my class we learned about a term called cupidity. it is an excessive want for things. i think i am consumed by it (i guess i am learning something i am using...haha). i love things!
anyways, i was really sad to miss sadies bday. especially in wine country!!
buuuut, money wise, i am glad i didnt miss this weekend. it was was busy!
but hopefully we will see each other on new years (if not before then!!)

i wonder how long after i register for classes that i will get my financial aid money??!
i want an iphone. i mean need. i need one. oh and i need some boots and various other shoes and clothes.

and i cant wait until thanksgiving. it will be fun.
05 October 2009 @ 11:59 am
i have been crying for the last hour. i am so stressed i think im going to have a break down.
one of those things happened where everything just keeps going wrong and i go through this slippery slope of how my life sucks, and why did i ever let it get this way.
last week my car heated up and i had to get the radiator changed. $200.

there is a fuse or something out and every time i turn on the blinkers, the windshield wipers go off. annoying.

i was driving from school this morning when the abs light came on in my car. i didnt know what it was, apparently its my breaks.
then the odometer stops working a couple if miles later. then the "o/d" off button goes on and off for no reason. then my car starts jolting everytime it changes gears. then the check engine light comes on. then i think i dont have money. i would like to buy a car, but who will give me a loan? i have bad credit. how did i let myself get bad credit. im 26 years old. im a waitress w/o a degree. blah blah and so it goes and i cry.

i think i will be in a bad mood for a week.
and im going to hawaii, am i going to enjoy it?? NO. im stressing about that too. i am going to miss A WHOLE WEEK of classes. and work.

24 September 2009 @ 09:58 pm
tonight was my first class at UCSD.


i dropped that stupid ass religion class and signed up for a childrens lit class with linsdey!

you want to know what we will be reading and writing essays on???

Charlotte's web, the lion the witch and the wardrobe, the hobbit, bridge to terabithia, island of the blue dolphins, a wrinkle in time, and un lun dun.


kinda nervous about tomorrow....today was ok because i went to school with L, tomorrow im on my own kiddies.
17 September 2009 @ 05:33 pm
is it bad that i want my school money already so i can buy cute stuff that has nothing to do with school???
I repeat, your writing assignments for this course will be on the internet, public,
and open to public
scrutiny. If you will find this overly embarrassing or distressing then please
consider taking a different
course. Likewise, you may be required to speak, sing, act, dance in front of others
on a regular basis. If
you will find this overly embarrassing or distressing then please consider taking a
different course.

08 September 2009 @ 11:11 pm
is it unreasonable of me to expect my friend to call me when i am going through a break-up?
and that i shouldn't be the one to call them all the time.

i understand that they have a life too.

but i feel like i would at least call once to check up on them or see how they are doing. even a text....or whatever.
30 August 2009 @ 03:55 pm
not really, but kind of.

this girl that used to work at the mission is managing the station that just opened up in south park.
they are having a "soft opening" for 2 weeks and i guess they were way busier than expected so she asked me and a few other people to help out.

it's pretty cool. and the customers are easy going.

i did a double yesterday and i just about died. i seriously don't know how i ever worked 2 jobs.
26 August 2009 @ 11:51 pm
and it's so effin hard.

i didnt think it would be like this.

but its for the best.

i don't want to see eric alot and sharing her wouldn't help that.

also i start school and it will be too much for me to worry about going home to feed her or walk her (my class sched is pretty hectic). or to be out doing something and worry about going home or her being in her crate too long etc. it was easier when there was 2 of us doing it. i dont wanna be a single mom.

but i will miss her face!